Hate for love

Sometimes I wonder if that feeling is just for friends or crush? Haha but when you fall deep for that someone. You then realize. There are some things in life that you should avoid. I will avoid this feeling for the time being. Thank you Lord for making me Strong-Willed.

14

OHAIYO!!

So I'm finally fourteen hmm... Lols... Well A EPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME N PRIYA RAMAKRISHNAN!!

CRAP!

AIZAT IS GONNA KILL ME ON MONDAY!! BLOODY PERVERT!!! He is sure to kiss me again.. damn him la.. i need to run away FAST! shit shit shit shit... bleh... he and sof are both no longer virgins btw my loves.

THEY ADMITTED IT AND I SAW WITH MY EYE... -SHUDDERS,- GOOSE BUMPS LA SIA.. mak oi naik bulu rumer aku sial... babi arh.. i wnna kill dat shithead tomorrow. saiful u are fuckin dead u ass! NAS U ARE SO GOING TO ACCOMPANY ME OUT TOMORROW!!!

u promised to treat me tomorrow shayang!!! LOVE U LOTS <3 hehe

Hey

Hello my dearest.

Did anybody missed me?? Heheh... I'm tired lols... my eyelids are heavy liao... I'm sleepy... some imaginary miniature hands are pulling my eyelids like blankets... Hahaha! Imagine that! Damn I stink like sambal belacan... peee----ueewww.... gotta change me loves.. take cares! LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH!

P.S: UDIN U CREEP WHEN ARE U GOING TO CALL ME!? I tell Hauziah dat you bully me... Comfirm you mati.. he my beloved bodyguard taus

Nothing

Hey,

There's nothing new today. I received a 38/40 for my English composition and 35/40 for my Malay composition. I'm waiting for a reply from Nas. Even though I know he won't... Haizz.. I was too harsh on him wasn't I? I'm regretting it liao... Oh well... Life has to go on

Update

Hey..

I've just updated my Wordpress. http://www.mangareview.info... Go see AIGHTS! LOVE YA!

Blueks

Me sick!! I need LOVE to cure me sickness... Not make love arh you cheeky boys... *giggles* Take care for now! WISH ME GOOD HEALTH!!!


I LOVE YOU!! <3

Hateful

Hey what's up lovers!


I hate Nas very much right now. I know I shouldn't write this here because he will surely read it. But fuck off la. I don't care anymore. I've been holding it in for a fucking long time now sia. So I don't give a mother fucking shit about this anymore. I'M FUCKING PISSED OF! NABE CHIBAI la!!! URGH!!!

I've been depressed for a whole week now. So buzz of if you know what's good for you! *sobs* I have really held it in for the past few days. So please, be more reasonable. It's really painful. You are my very good friend. Why won't I want to see you. A bit stupid right. I'm sorry for what I have said. But I won't back down from what I have wrote.

This is what I feel right now. I'm coming for all reasons. And the number 1 reason is you. All I need now is some time to myself. Your apology was insincere. I know it isn't sincere. You said it out of anger. I know that accent very well.

So for the last time, I apologise for venting my anger here. I don't want our friendship to be split into two for this reason. I just need some consideration. I'm sincerely sorry Nas.

Today

Hey!

See what I did to my blog? hahaha... cool right.. Muahahah! Actually not very nice la shit. Today I'm Ms V!!! so, FUCK THE WORLD! MUAHAHA! LAN JIAO!

GUAHAHAHAHA! I had steamboat with my sis for lunch. Sial la nice perh. Huahuahuahua... Chihuahua. LOL!

Don't ask what happen. Cause today I'm Ms V! chibai la my leg itch like fucking hell la sia

Rooted

I stood rooted to the ground,
Stunned and outraged.

I can't believe my eyes,
Or were they playing tricks on me.

I can't accept the fact that what lies before me is the truth

Gone or Vanished?

Hey hey!!! Here's a little something for y'all!

Those times when I was young,
Cherished the moments I did not.

Now time has flown away,
So does my age.

Stay young forever I do not,
Age day by day, I do.

Times of joy I should have cherished,
Vanished as memories.

Gone to my heart,
To my mind it has.

Those times were great,
Treasured it I should have.

Now it's too late,
But future awaits.

A/N: Wonderful isn't it?! I just made that up.. Muahaha ^_^

Frustrated

JUST GET THE HELL OUT OF MY WAY! DON'T BUG ME ANYMORE! I don't want anyone to talk to me for the next few days. And I mean NO ONE! Not even my best friends or best of my best friends are allowed to even chat to me... TOTALLY FORBIDDEN for the next few days!!

GOOD RIDDANCE!

Rahsiaku Rahsiamu

Percantuman batinku dan batinmu tak dapat dipisahkan.
Tapi kerana jasad... Hmm~

Masih enggan menjadi gangguan
Oh gadis yang ayu, penuh iman.
Apakah rahsiamu
Oh teruna, gagah kuidamkan

Rahsiaku, Rahsiamu

Oh gadis yang ku ingin, menyatukan rohani serta jasmani.
Oh teruna alangkah cemerlang
Andainya tercapilah cita.
Terimalah ucapan batinku ini
Dan Jasmaniku, agar tiada gagal pabila pulang nanti

Selamat Sempurna

Piping sucks! BIG TIME

YOSH!

Hey people's! How are ya?! Hahaha! I'm fine, doing good only tired. I can't believe I spent my entire day doing piping. Good heavens. It's a good thing that where the water tank is, is strong enough to withstand me and my sis. The original pipes are already rusty and clocked up.

And to think I use the water flowing in it to shower. Eew! Disgusting la sia. Where on Earth is Nassie? I'm gonna kill him tomorrow. How dare he!! In front of my juniors some more! Where in the world am I gonna paste my irresistibly beautiful and cute face tomorrow! I am SO going to eat my chub face tomorrow. Beware Nassie! You have been warned!

I'm gonna give him hickeys on his cheeks so obvious that Mdm Bay is sure to call on him! Muahaha! Oh well he will still like it. That total imbecile. I can't believe that he is so thick-skinned to go around kissing me in school and still have the cheek to fight off any other hotties that comes near me. Haizz... The life I go through with my best friend. Yes BEST FRIEND!

I know, I know you don't see guys and girls who are best of friends going around kissing, giving hickeys or love bites in school. But it's FACT people! He and I are only BEST of FRIENDS! Full-stop the end. That's it. haha. Well I'll be seeing you! Love YOU XD!

With a cheeky smile,- Masayu

Updates on 17/01/10

HELLO!!!!

I don't know why but my heart hurts so badly! Please don't ask why. It is very stressful for me already. It feels like blowing up. I feel like blowing up! Was is my chocolato when I need it. Ice-cream isn't working anymore!!!

Alrighty! Enough of sadness, it is time to story-tell! *giggles*. Nothing much happened today so I'll be making this post short, Hopefully. I miss my niece and nephews... *sobs* I want to watch "Merlin" people! Bye!

Tomboy Once again

Morning!

My mum cut my hair just now. Once again I am the Me with the tomboy hair. Not that it is bad though. My mum knows what kind of hairstyle I like BEST! Short hair!!!!

I'll continue of later at night okays?! hehe...

Exhausted

Good Morning to the WORLD!!

I'm so tired. I can't believe I still have to wake up at 5 am in the morning even on weekends. I'm beat. My mum and dad are asleep. Thank God. Dad was grumpy right after morning deliveries. Why, I don't know. Mum is still weak. My sis is watching cartoon... I'm as usual, updating stuff here and there. Flixter, Myspace, Twitter and all hehe...

I feel like eating again. At this rate I'll grow fat in a matter of time. *Giggles*. Then no one want me.... Saddd..... Hahahaha!!! Thanks to Emir, I like saying, "Sad" haha.. I can't wait til I graduate in four years time. I mean I still have to go to Form 6. Goodness. I wonder where I'll be schooling then. Kuala Lumpur or still in Johor Bahru? Will anyone miss me? I doubt so.

My leg still hurts from the burn. The skin is peeling off. It hurts so bad. I didn't sleep a wink last night. I was thinking of the land and house we have in Selangor. I bet no friends of mine will notice me leave. I'm the wall in school. Only teachers happen to realize me. That is also because when they need something from me. Else I'd be ignored. What rotten luck do I have? I'm tired. I'll update more at night.

Amelia HOSPITALIZED!!

Hey,

Nothing to be happy about today. My niece was hospitalized because something got stuck in her nose and can't come out. When my sister and brother-in-law went to the hospital to get whatever thing was inside her nostrils out, they found out it was some old metal that has rusted and a huge probability that it has been there for a few months.

Goodness that child. She never fails to worry her parents, grandparents and her uncle and aunts. Hopefully she has learned her lesson. ^_^...

That wasn't the only thing that had happened though... My mum had a twisted nerve at her hips so bad that she couldn't stand. I couldn't bear watching her suffer....

I'm so stupid. I didn't think my life would make me so miserable and sorrowful. Oh dear. It is only 8.41pm and my eyelids are heavy... Good thing Emir and Huda are entertaining me right now. Else I won't hesitate to fall on my bed and snooze off. But I can't. Since my sister is still tutoring students right now. Why must they be tutored at night. Can't you people be more considerate!

I'm tired you know!! The person I want to chat with is not online.. *giggles*... not "Him" in paticular. But "He" haha... oh dear its confusing since both have the same name. But not the one I like la... Right now I miss Tengku Nasrullah... He hasn't called me in days. Did something happen to him?! I hope not.

I want to talk to him. Aww man... Don't tell me.. Crap I think it is. He is jealous. I've been busy lately that I haven't talked to him. I'm sorry dear, I can't call you. My prepaid has yet to be reloaded. I'll call you tomorrow love. I know that you are baby-sitting tonight. So I won't disturb you working. Be careful. I'm so sorry. Take care. I love you. Both of you. SO MUCH!!! And I'm NOT two-timing Joseph!!! sheesh... take cares

With lots of love- Masayu

Sadness

My heart is aching, tears are forming.

I know what his answer shall be.

But I understand why.

Fade away my feelings. I need you not.

You fail to bring me happiness...

You succeed in bringing me sorrow.

Perish for now, come back later...

I need not a broken heart. That is all..

A/N: I hope that my heart won't break as it has already

Updates on TODAY!

Hey....


So did any of y'all enjoyed the songs?? hehehe.... Well here is something from the bottom of my heart to all my readers Young and Old...

"Life is full of mystery. Good or bad. There were times when it hurts, there were also joyful times. Having someone to love is a burden. Not having one kills. True friends are hard to find. Most will stab your back. But fear not of the future. For you know not of what shall happen. Look forward to it, and you shall find that emptiness in your heart."

A/N: I was inspired by my memories of my past love. Though there were times when it hurts and when I felt like breaking but I didn't end it just there. I stood tall once more. In search of something more... Please don't be so miserable over your life. Live it to your fullest for you live only once. Treasure it when you have it.

Love

Here is something for you....

You were my strength when I was weak.

You were my voice when I couldn't speak.

You were my eyes when I couldn't see.

You saw the best there was in me.

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach.

You gave me faith cause you believe.

I'm everything I am because you loved me...

A/N: This chorus was sang by one of the power houses, Celine Dion!!!!

Mornin!

Hey!

Hello loves! How are you people this morning? I'm so tired... Even when I'm not schooling I have to wake up at 5 am... zzZZzzz I'll update later at night... Take care and have a wonderful morning!

Entitled, Ain again

Hi's to people who is reading and byes to the people deleting,

I haven't heard anyone call me "Ain" for a long time goodness. Best day EVER!! I met my ex-boyfriend Udin... LAWL! I know its wicked!

I didn't recognize him at first though. It was him who came up to me saying, "Ain?!" Haha... I was like, "What who are you? Do I know you? If I don't shoo.." haha... Surprisingly, he wasn't surprised with my reaction. Last time I met him was Primary 4... It has been four long and miserable years. haha... That irritating guy....

So both of us sat and chit-chat and went for a walk at CS together. Bleh... Since some idiots stood me up. He accompanied me. I forgot how much fun it was to hang out with him. Haha... He has become stronger then me now. I wonder if he worked out since I always defeat him in arm wrestling. And FYI, he was my wrestling partner.

When we arm wrestle he always says, "You are good at attacking and I'm good at defending." everything he almost loses. But it took me about three months before I can finally defeat him then. He was honestly good at defending himself ^_^... Those days were fun. Even though Rulang Primary School is a hell school. I never fail to have fun when he is around. And nothing has changed since then.

I'll continue off next time dears. I have to shower now!!! love ya!

My love for you- Pics

Love is Hateful.
What it can do to you is a mystery.
It can destroy you or bring you joy.


A/N: I have chosen the path where it can bring me happiness and joy. I have had enough of misery and sorrows.

The sickly

The sickly are down.

The healthy are up.

Half at home, half at work.

Nothing is free for there are exchanges.

An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth...

A/N: Good bye love.

Deep down in my heart

Present and Past, Tales shall spill like the blood of many.

Men died in war. Some survived, staining their swords with blood of enemies.

Women and children cried and moaned over their dead loved ones.

Sons swore to avenge their fathers death. Some lost hope.

But deep down in their deepest corner of their heart, a severe wound that occur is unable to be cured. A scared child crying, waiting, for courage from their fathers.
One dies protecting ones family or country is blessed to heaven.

A/N: Only true love shall sacrifice one's life for his loved one. That is what I think.
Do you agree?

Went out

Hey Loves',

Joseph I'm SO SORRY I didn't pick up my phone when you miss called me four times. I am Sorry!! I was out with my family. After school I was dragged out by Nas and gang LOL! He was going on and on about "You don't come and I'll smooch you."

Knowing his character I'd better go else he will force a kiss on me... And I'd get a tounge bath for nothing.. *shivers* EWWW!!!!! I hate that dude for that reason.

And I mish my N@$_RUleZ so much.. *sobs* too bad so sad. Haizz...
Would he agree if I were to ask him to be my boyfriend? What do you guys think??

A/N: PLEASE COMMENT AND GIVE ME WHAT YOU THINK!! ><

Shugo Chara, Umu-chan

Invisible Scar.

Hey,

Alright I'm just repeating what I said in my other blog. I cut myself by accident on my palm this evening. However, it does not hurt as much as my invisible scar deep down in my heart buried. Unknown when it will blow up like a volcano.

It hurts so bad that even crying does me no good. So I have decided that I will close my heart up. And only open once more when I am at the right age. For now, it is useless.

Apologise

All I want from him is an apology. Is it hard to ask for? I really do want him to be nicer to me.... That is all

The top pic is just a reference for me btw

My heart Ache

Hey,

Though I love him, hem treats me like a wall no matter how much I tell him I love him. He denies that he treats me like a wall. He denies that he didn't swear at me. He denies that I am an existence like him.

I should have listen to my girlfriend when she told me to keep away from him. I should have listen before my heart could have torn up.

I'm a loser. I hate myself for loving him