Nightmare

CHAPTER 10

Gnosis and Logos were out on their hunt for wild fledglings. It took them about five hours to complete one district. But it took them longer to complete the Peninsula District. "Peninsula District"? *Giggles* It reminds me of the game "Neverwinter Knights" I loved playing!! My laughter shook the entire hall that even Agape hid under the table. I giggled once more before calling out to my loyal familiar, ensuring her that there was nothing to be afraid of. I scratched her left ear as a sign of my apology. She purred to the scratching that made my eyes feel so sleepy. I gestured to Agape to move nearer to my bed before settling down beside her, snuggling into her fur and thus, fell deep into sleep.

It was dark, gloomy with clouds that looked like rain clouds. I was afraid, so very afraid. Mother and Father were fast asleep in their room. The thunder and lighting made me shiver with fear. I wrapped myself like a cacoon with my blanky... I was so scared. There was a hand knocking on my window. I wanted to scream for mom and dad, but I wanted to show them that I was a big girl. Able to take care of myself. Suddenly the window opened. A man came in from that window. I quickly rolled to the other side of my bed and hid under the bed for safety. I wanted to warn mommy and daddy, but I was too late. By the time I reached them, their bed were all soaked in blood.

"Menolly! GET OUT OF HERE! RUN AWAY! GO!"

dad was shouting at me to run away, but where to? Suddenly, mom came running to me, holding her in her arms.
"Mommy? Mommy are you ok?"

"Menolly, dear, I want you to know that mommy and daddy loves you very much. I want you to think of grandma now my child."

I wanted to question her why. But my instincts told me to heed her orders. I thought of grandma, her house in the middle of the crops filled with corns. I thought of her and only her, when a sudden light blinded me. Within minutes, I was beside grandma.

"Menolly! IS THAT YOU CHILD?! Oh dear heavens, how did you get here?! Wait, Why are you here my child?" Only then did she realize that my clothes were soaking in blood. I wanted to cry but instead , "Help mommy and daddy. A scary man is hurting them. Please Grandmama, help my mother and father!"

And with that, I burst into tears.

By the time they arrived back, everyone had a sad expression. Grandmother was crying. why was she crying? I thought. I wanted to ask about my parents. However, grandfather came and patted my head and hugged me. He smiled at me with a sad and hurt look. Then I knew what had befallen upon them. At their funeral, I didn't shed a single tear. No matter how hard I tried, no matter how much I told myself I love them, I didn't cry. I wanted to cry badly. So that I can forget about this incident as quickly as possible. But it was useless. Their death has left me in despair... Full of guilt...

I felt my cheeks wet and awoke from my nightmare. I found Agape staring at me with a worried expression Are you alright Master? I nodded my head, ensuring Agape that I was alright. "I just had a nightmare Agape. A tragical nightmare. One I do not wish to relive or to experience again. She nodded her head and purred against my cheek, ensuring me that she will always be by my side if I ever experience any nightmare again. How I love Agape. I snuggled back into her fur, curling myself into a ball and went back to sleep. Hoping that nothing will occur in my sleep.

A/N: SO, how'd you like this hmm? hopefully you like it as much as I do!! REVIEW PLEASE!

Recruitment?

CHAPTER 9

It was another day in hell. No kidding. The Underworld might just drive me INSANE! To think I managed them ALL by myself. Goodness. How I wish I had a normal life. Unfortunately I don't. My life from young has been hectic. Now I know why my parents told me to enjoy my youth when I still could. But too bad its too late now... Mom, dad.

Tears welled up, threatening to spill. How I missed my parents. Their life with me was short. I remembered them through clumps of memories. My parents died in an "accident" when I was eight. It was hard for me, losing both parents. My cheeks felt wet and hot. My tears came flowing down like a tap. I sobbed in my room as hard as I could, letting out the sadness and sorrows I had fill my heart in.
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"Recruitment of young vampires?" Gnosis nodded. He explained to me that we needed to train the young vampires whom was brought up like me. Without my sire. It was painful to relive after you die, struggling to breathe but can't. The feeling is horrible. Feels like drowning but you never die. No fledgling could breathe when they have recently been sired. It will take at least a year to learn how to breathe once more. Not that it is necessary though...

"Agreed. I leave the training and finding of the fledgling's to you and Logos, Gnosis. I trust you know what you are doing. It will be hard, but be patient Gnosis. I have gone through and I know what it feels to struggle without a sire. They will act on instincts. If they smell blood, they will attack. They will be hard to control Gnosis. They know no respect for ranks. You will have to show them that you are superior. Understand me Gnosis, Logos?"

"Yes your Majesty." they said together.

"You speak well for a fledgling yourself, Your Majesty." Smirking, Dredge hugged me from the back and peck my lips...

"Why thank you." was all I could say...

TO BE CONTINUED...

A/N: Hey all! hope you like the chap! love ya!

It has Begun!

Chapter 8

I got dressed in a silken dress. It was thin and light. It made walking very much easier. I should thank Dredge for the dress. It suited its purpose as it was hot in the Underworld. Though we don't feel any difference of hot and cold. But it doesn't hurt to be a little human sometimes, does it?

I met Dredge down at the dining hall, passing through several hallways and several corridors. If a human were to live here, he or she will be exercising everyday for the all sorts of reasons. Good thing I'm not though. *Grins*. Else I'll be skin and bones left if I were to get lost in this labyrinth of a castle. To think that this castle is mine... Who would have thought of it.. hmm... hahaha...

A sudden figure startled me. It wasn't a man. It was an animal, a black panther with a horn on its forehead. Making it look like a unicorn. It had golden eyes and long sharp fangs. Much like a Sabre-tooth. It stared at me with longing eyes. I reached out my hand to touch it, but it moved back one step. "Agape, come, come to me my pet. Have no fear of me. You are mine Agape. I love you, and I won't hurt you Agape. You know I won't." Convinced, Agape(which means Love in our language) approached me. I welcomed her lovingly and scratched her left ear, earning myself a purr. She was contented as I was. Soon I had to move on to the dining table, where Dredge sat waiting for me.

I was accompanied by my familiar, Agape. It brought me more confidence in time to come to meet the Vampire Council. Even the Underworld had politics.... WHY!!!!!!

"Welcome, your Majesty Menolly. I am glad to be of your acquaintances. I am called Gnosis. Beside me here is my younger brother, Logos. I assume you remember us, no?" I nodded my head in agreement. Gnosis and Logos. Both symbolizes Knowledge. Interesting, I expect alot coming from them. *Smirks*. They seem to be a likable lot. My journey here will be an interesting one once more. I will follow where fate and destiny brings me.

TO BE CONTINUED...

A/N: YAY! I LOVEEEEEEEEEE THIS CHAP AS MUCH AS THE REST! I LOVE AGAPE!... it reminds me of.... My Agape....

Flooded Mind

Chapter 7

Next morning, I woke up from sleep recalling the dream I had to know that it really happened. I saw Dredge approaching my bed, topless. I stared at his naked torso and blushed when I realized he was aware of where I was looking. After what we did together last night, I didn't think I'd still blush.

He brought me a cup of coffee. Warm, the way I like it. Yes, I can drink coffee. The tales about vampires only survived on blood is not all true, but not all wrong either. We can still eat human food and walk under the sun. But it is no lie that our eyes do sting when sunlight occur.

I sipped the coffee slowly to enjoy the taste on my tongue before swallowing it. I loved how the coffee tasted. Thick and rich, just like, erm... well, blood... *smiles* Now don't get me wrong. Blood does taste thick and rich you know.

As I rested the cup down on the blanket, I realized that I was no longer in my room. I was in an unfamiliar room. Its scent was like the earth, thick,musky and soily. Though at first it stung my noise. But slowly the scent became soothing. Funny how I didn't realize it until now. I must have been so caught up on staring at Dredge that I didn't realize my surroundings.

I blushed at that thought. Only to be soothe by Dredge. His hands caressed my cheeks. It immediately calmed me down.

"Today my love, you will have to fulfill your duties." I groaned at the statement. Oh how I have always hated working.

TO BE CONTINUED...

A/N: I know, I know. It's short. But bear with me people. I'm skipping dinner for y'all. Be grateful will you!?

Shower of emotions

Chapter 6

I stared into his eyes questioning his previous statement in silence... What did he mean by "Queen"? I thought. But I was so distracted with my thoughts in silence that it startled me when Dredge touched my cheek. Caressing it ever so lightly.

I gazed deep in his beautiful navy eyes. Suddenly, tons of memories flowed into my mind.
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Flashback

I was sitting on my bed, deep in thoughts. A sudden figure approached me, awakening me from my thoughts. There stood a beautiful man, too beautiful to be mine.
Tall with wide chest and broad shoulders. Long and muscular arms and legs. Hair bright blond like the colour of the warm sun, eyes warm navy blue. Nose sharp, not too long, not too short, Perfect. Lips pink and lush. He was the perfect man.

"Dredge.." His lips crushed onto mine when I was about to speak. He longed for me, hungry and possessive. I didn't care one bit. I slide my hand onto his back, synchronizing with his touch on me. His hand found its way to my right breast and I was given a light squeeze that earned him a moan. He took the chance to slid his tongue into me exploring his way in my mouth. It gave me the shudders as our tongue entwined and danced together.

I slid my hand under his shirt, unclothing him as he did me. As he broke the kiss and trailed it down my jaw, I couldn't help but feel disappointed that we had to stop our hot kiss. I realized his smirk as I growled low as he planted kisses along the part that connected my neck and my shoulder.

His mouth found his way to my breast and kissed my hardened nipple. That night, we made love as though there were no tomorrow. Unfortunately, tomorrow did come.

He gently squeezed both my breast with his hands and stared deep into my eyes, with eyes filled with lust.

He was my lover, My knight, My husband. Dredge Persimus.

End of Flashback
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"I accept you as you, I accept me as me. I, Queen of the Underworld. Lady of the Night, Menolly D'Arg. And I accept you, Dredge Persimus, Son of the great vampire, Jarele Persimus. My mate, my love, My knight of the Underworld." With that, I kissed him with full force only to be return with a compassionate and long kiss.

TO BE CONTINUED...

A/N: OH MY GOD! I actually did it! I actually did a good job at this!! BOOYAH!! I RULE!!! HIGH FIVE PEOPLE!! wootz! will update soon enough =D

Night Of Passion

Chapter 5

I wanted to get away from him. But I couldn't understand why I was attracted to him. To think that I almost lost my virginity to the man that made me into what I am now. Funny how it seemed that I felt lost when I stared into his eyes.

When I turned to face away, he grabbed my arms and yanked me to him. I was about to scream my lungs out when he picked me up in a bridal style and within minutes, we were at my house. "Why, why did you bring me here Dregde?" I questioned. He said nothing and placed me gently on my bed.

I opened my mouth to question him again but my body betrayed me. It moved against my will and stared into his blue navy eyes. He held my gaze that I didn't realize he was in front of me. "My Queen, I am honored to be of your acquaintances. You will rise once more. And be the one to lead peace between us Creature of the Night and the Living. Accept me... Accept yourself"

TO BE CONTINUED....

A/N: Damn I was thinking about going long with this chap. But don't seem I could... =D Sorry to leave y'all hanging.... I'm thinking bout "The Twisted Citadel" by Sara Douglass.... SHE LEFT ME HANGING!!! haiyoh.... the book dat left me hanging was "The Serpent Bride" haizzzzzz..... after all the trouble I took to read the book... she left me hanging... lols...

Creature of the Night

CHAPTER 4

That night, I heard the wind hustle, made my no longer beating heart skipped a beat. My fangs were stained with blood of thugs. I retracted it as I made my move.

I felt a sudden jerk upon my hand. And there it was, the very reason of my fear. My sire, the very vampire which turned me into the beast I am now. He was called, Dredge. Tall with dark blue eyes, hair short but curly, blond. Lips so lush that any woman he wishes to kiss will not back down. His lips told me that he was an experienced kisser. And a damn hell of a good one too.

His eyes were filled unexpected emotions you could never think he had. For a vampire that is. He inched nearer and nearer to me, closing the gap between us until we were a kiss apart. His eyes told me that he wanted me... And wanted me BAD and NOW! It was so, demanding.

I couldn't stop myself, "I want you" he said. So soft that humans could not hear. Surprisingly, I was happy that I was a vampire that moment.

He crushed his lips to mine, biting my lip for entrance. I opened my mouth and felt his tongue explore every inch of my mouth. I shuddered when I heard myself moan in pleasure. Why? Why was I in heat for a male that is the very cause of the way I am now?

The thought of it snapped me back to reality. I managed to push him away before he mesmerize me again.

He looked me in my eyes, hurt. I felt my heart throb seeing his expression. "Not here, not now" was all I said....

I..

TO BE CONTINUED!

A/N: NYAHAHA! Good eh... c ya'll real soon SUCKERS!

Time of Control

CHAPTER 3

I feared that I will lose my loved ones.... Well, not that I have any though... I hated the feeling of guilt for killing the innocent lives of others to quench my hunger, my thirst.

This time I thought for sure I would take the life of an innocent firstborn. But something deep in my heart, my mind, told me to control the beast in me. It told me that I was the one in CONTROL! For it is My body, My flesh and soul.

And so I learnt to control my inner me, my beast. For the sake of the innocent lives. If I had to feed on the humans, I fed on thugs or criminals.

That night....

TO BE CONTINUED!

A/N: I was inspired by my fav author. Theee is how me feel.... Pls understand my concept.

Overwhelming Recovery?

CHAPTER 2

I couldn't think straight. All I could think was.....b...blo...od....blood.. All I could think of was BLOOD! I had to have blood. My mind was blurry, had a splitting headache. I tried to figure out what was wrong with me until, I smelled something. Something so delicious. So, appetising...

I started to drool. My hunger grew more and more. I followed the scent of the delicious food. My feet was light, surprisingly. My movements were swift and agile. It felt as though I was running on air.

I reached my meal faster then I thought. It was, a, deer. Wait, why was I in the forest? But that question left my mind when I felt my teeth grew longer and longer. I touched the tips of teeth with my finger tips. They were no longer teeth, replaced with, fangs.

I wanted to cry, cry hard and loud. But couldn't. I felt myself drawn to the deer. I tried to stop. I knew what creature I was. I knew what had caused me to turn into this creature I now am.I knew too well what I had to do. I guided myself through my instincts, even though part of me tried to hold back for the sake of my sanity.

As I sank my fangs deep intp the deer's neck, my tears overflowed like a waterfall from a mountain.

Yes Nosferatu, this is what you were born to do. Your time will come very soon. Very soon you will return to your....

I couldn't hear the last few words the voice in my head had said because I was too frustrated and shut all other unimportant things from my mind. I want to be myself, alone, for the time being. When I still have a little humanity in me. I continued sucking the deer's blood, tears still flowing like a river.

I was worried for I fear......

TO BE CONTINUED... =D

A/N: Don't you just love me =D. I keep all good stuff away don't I =D... HAHAHAHAHA!! Patience Nosferatu, It will all come in good times... I promised you I'd update it right.... But that didn't mean I promised a full story XD!!

Overcoming Death

CHAPTER 1

Flashes of light blinded me, swallowing my every sorrow. That night when I stared into space, I felt every hair on my body stand. My last breath was cold and easy.

It is not your time yet child. Live once more and be thirsty my Nosferatu.

I awoke once more, my throat burning like fire. The voice in my head kept coming back,. It kept telling me to feed... FEED!!

I .....

TO BE CONTINUED...

A/N:Don't you people just LOVE me... I'll update tomorrow if I remember ya!

Dead or Alive

SO I came up with this, read and comment ya?!:

The night sky was dark and scary,
Yet it was soothing.

The breeze was cooling,
Yet it brought shiver down my spine.

The life I have been through,
The rough and scary skies I've climbed,
Was nothing compared to this.

Never in my life did I fear losing my life.
Never had I came across this thoughout my adventures.

Today is the day when I fight to live,
Fight with death.
And fight with destiny.

I believe that fate is in my hands.
However HE destines us all.
Though I prove my wrong and rights,
Now is where I throw them all.

The answer I wish to seek,
Now lies in the hands of thee.
The reasons to the answer,
Are now disappeared with me.

My soul is at peace,
My life was fruitful.
Today is the day,
Where I put it all through.

A/N: So watcha think? CoOl ehk?! LOL!!! CMM PLS!!! ccc cmnt ski!

Happy Birthday

To my dearest, lovable and youngest nephew. Mohammed Danial Afiq, I hereby wish you a HAPPY FIRST BIRTHDAY!!! Learn to walk faster my dearest. Busu love you very much!!!



With lots of love and kisses, Masayu(busu)

Tired...

News flash my dears.

If y'all can't make it on CNY this year, ye won't be able to meet up with me anymore. Cause, A: I have lost interest in coming down to Singapore. B: If I do come down, I'll be here for Nas,Shaheen,Sharania,Zen and Fuzzbal.

My ppl will be able to come down JB to find me. The rest are jerks and bitches. Admit themselves as my friends but stab my back upteen times. I have had enough. If y'all wanna see me ask Those who knows how to get to me to bring you along the next time they go out with me.

I'm not in the best position or situation to have you fucking me around. Who in the fucking world do y'all fucking think ye are!?! Whatever la sia

Tearto Simplety Astri Arsha

Tearto my dearest..

I am the one who should apologise. Forgive me for all I've done... Too late I know. But my life is always happy for you were there. I know I've been a bitch. I know I've been a pain. Just this one I ask from you, one which I have never done.

Tengku Nasrullah, Anak kepada Baginda Tengku Mahmood, Cucu kepada Sultan Pahang, Maaf ku pinta dari mu wahai sahabat karibku. Cintaku ini tidak dibelah bagi. Hanya saat kini ku pinta darimu wahai Tengku, wahai sahabatku. Maaf'i la patik Tengku. Sebagai sahabatmu, sebagai orangmu.

Aku sedar ia terlambat, aku juga sedar yang kamu telah hilang dari peluk ku. Tetapi, cara kita ini salah. Janganlah kamu menghilangkan diri.

I'm really sorry my friend, that I have hurt you. My heart aches no lesser than yours. All I wish for is that you forgive me. Even if I have to cut myself open to present you my heart, to show you my sincerity, I will do so. You know my character well. I love you very much and you know that very much. Even though you knew I was in love, yet you stood by me.

I know I'm being selfish but, I ask from you to stand by me one last time. If you could do that endless time previously, why not now? When I need you the most. I really need you right now. I don't like it when you are around her. I don't like it when you ignore me. But what I don't the most is YOU GIVING ME THE COLD SHOULDER AND THE COLD GLARE!! It is... a feeling not able to be explained by words.

But don't get me wrong. I know, that you know, that I have someone I love. Nothing will change unless he rejects me fowardly. You know too well that I recover very slowly from my heart break. And you witnessed me once like a vegetable. All I ask for you is to be with me. I know I'm not considering your feelings, but I want you near ME not her.... I'm sorry. Even if you decide to stay the way you are now, I'm sorry. That's all I wanted to say. Be happy always Nas =D

Hate for love

Sometimes I wonder if that feeling is just for friends or crush? Haha but when you fall deep for that someone. You then realize. There are some things in life that you should avoid. I will avoid this feeling for the time being. Thank you Lord for making me Strong-Willed.

14

OHAIYO!!

So I'm finally fourteen hmm... Lols... Well A EPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME N PRIYA RAMAKRISHNAN!!

CRAP!

AIZAT IS GONNA KILL ME ON MONDAY!! BLOODY PERVERT!!! He is sure to kiss me again.. damn him la.. i need to run away FAST! shit shit shit shit... bleh... he and sof are both no longer virgins btw my loves.

THEY ADMITTED IT AND I SAW WITH MY EYE... -SHUDDERS,- GOOSE BUMPS LA SIA.. mak oi naik bulu rumer aku sial... babi arh.. i wnna kill dat shithead tomorrow. saiful u are fuckin dead u ass! NAS U ARE SO GOING TO ACCOMPANY ME OUT TOMORROW!!!

u promised to treat me tomorrow shayang!!! LOVE U LOTS <3 hehe

Hey

Hello my dearest.

Did anybody missed me?? Heheh... I'm tired lols... my eyelids are heavy liao... I'm sleepy... some imaginary miniature hands are pulling my eyelids like blankets... Hahaha! Imagine that! Damn I stink like sambal belacan... peee----ueewww.... gotta change me loves.. take cares! LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH!

P.S: UDIN U CREEP WHEN ARE U GOING TO CALL ME!? I tell Hauziah dat you bully me... Comfirm you mati.. he my beloved bodyguard taus

Nothing

Hey,

There's nothing new today. I received a 38/40 for my English composition and 35/40 for my Malay composition. I'm waiting for a reply from Nas. Even though I know he won't... Haizz.. I was too harsh on him wasn't I? I'm regretting it liao... Oh well... Life has to go on

Update

Hey..

I've just updated my Wordpress. http://www.mangareview.info... Go see AIGHTS! LOVE YA!

Blueks

Me sick!! I need LOVE to cure me sickness... Not make love arh you cheeky boys... *giggles* Take care for now! WISH ME GOOD HEALTH!!!


I LOVE YOU!! <3

Hateful

Hey what's up lovers!


I hate Nas very much right now. I know I shouldn't write this here because he will surely read it. But fuck off la. I don't care anymore. I've been holding it in for a fucking long time now sia. So I don't give a mother fucking shit about this anymore. I'M FUCKING PISSED OF! NABE CHIBAI la!!! URGH!!!

I've been depressed for a whole week now. So buzz of if you know what's good for you! *sobs* I have really held it in for the past few days. So please, be more reasonable. It's really painful. You are my very good friend. Why won't I want to see you. A bit stupid right. I'm sorry for what I have said. But I won't back down from what I have wrote.

This is what I feel right now. I'm coming for all reasons. And the number 1 reason is you. All I need now is some time to myself. Your apology was insincere. I know it isn't sincere. You said it out of anger. I know that accent very well.

So for the last time, I apologise for venting my anger here. I don't want our friendship to be split into two for this reason. I just need some consideration. I'm sincerely sorry Nas.

Today

Hey!

See what I did to my blog? hahaha... cool right.. Muahahah! Actually not very nice la shit. Today I'm Ms V!!! so, FUCK THE WORLD! MUAHAHA! LAN JIAO!

GUAHAHAHAHA! I had steamboat with my sis for lunch. Sial la nice perh. Huahuahuahua... Chihuahua. LOL!

Don't ask what happen. Cause today I'm Ms V! chibai la my leg itch like fucking hell la sia

Rooted

I stood rooted to the ground,
Stunned and outraged.

I can't believe my eyes,
Or were they playing tricks on me.

I can't accept the fact that what lies before me is the truth

Gone or Vanished?

Hey hey!!! Here's a little something for y'all!

Those times when I was young,
Cherished the moments I did not.

Now time has flown away,
So does my age.

Stay young forever I do not,
Age day by day, I do.

Times of joy I should have cherished,
Vanished as memories.

Gone to my heart,
To my mind it has.

Those times were great,
Treasured it I should have.

Now it's too late,
But future awaits.

A/N: Wonderful isn't it?! I just made that up.. Muahaha ^_^

Frustrated

JUST GET THE HELL OUT OF MY WAY! DON'T BUG ME ANYMORE! I don't want anyone to talk to me for the next few days. And I mean NO ONE! Not even my best friends or best of my best friends are allowed to even chat to me... TOTALLY FORBIDDEN for the next few days!!

GOOD RIDDANCE!

Rahsiaku Rahsiamu

Percantuman batinku dan batinmu tak dapat dipisahkan.
Tapi kerana jasad... Hmm~

Masih enggan menjadi gangguan
Oh gadis yang ayu, penuh iman.
Apakah rahsiamu
Oh teruna, gagah kuidamkan

Rahsiaku, Rahsiamu

Oh gadis yang ku ingin, menyatukan rohani serta jasmani.
Oh teruna alangkah cemerlang
Andainya tercapilah cita.
Terimalah ucapan batinku ini
Dan Jasmaniku, agar tiada gagal pabila pulang nanti

Selamat Sempurna

Piping sucks! BIG TIME

YOSH!

Hey people's! How are ya?! Hahaha! I'm fine, doing good only tired. I can't believe I spent my entire day doing piping. Good heavens. It's a good thing that where the water tank is, is strong enough to withstand me and my sis. The original pipes are already rusty and clocked up.

And to think I use the water flowing in it to shower. Eew! Disgusting la sia. Where on Earth is Nassie? I'm gonna kill him tomorrow. How dare he!! In front of my juniors some more! Where in the world am I gonna paste my irresistibly beautiful and cute face tomorrow! I am SO going to eat my chub face tomorrow. Beware Nassie! You have been warned!

I'm gonna give him hickeys on his cheeks so obvious that Mdm Bay is sure to call on him! Muahaha! Oh well he will still like it. That total imbecile. I can't believe that he is so thick-skinned to go around kissing me in school and still have the cheek to fight off any other hotties that comes near me. Haizz... The life I go through with my best friend. Yes BEST FRIEND!

I know, I know you don't see guys and girls who are best of friends going around kissing, giving hickeys or love bites in school. But it's FACT people! He and I are only BEST of FRIENDS! Full-stop the end. That's it. haha. Well I'll be seeing you! Love YOU XD!

With a cheeky smile,- Masayu

Updates on 17/01/10

HELLO!!!!

I don't know why but my heart hurts so badly! Please don't ask why. It is very stressful for me already. It feels like blowing up. I feel like blowing up! Was is my chocolato when I need it. Ice-cream isn't working anymore!!!

Alrighty! Enough of sadness, it is time to story-tell! *giggles*. Nothing much happened today so I'll be making this post short, Hopefully. I miss my niece and nephews... *sobs* I want to watch "Merlin" people! Bye!

Tomboy Once again

Morning!

My mum cut my hair just now. Once again I am the Me with the tomboy hair. Not that it is bad though. My mum knows what kind of hairstyle I like BEST! Short hair!!!!

I'll continue of later at night okays?! hehe...

Exhausted

Good Morning to the WORLD!!

I'm so tired. I can't believe I still have to wake up at 5 am in the morning even on weekends. I'm beat. My mum and dad are asleep. Thank God. Dad was grumpy right after morning deliveries. Why, I don't know. Mum is still weak. My sis is watching cartoon... I'm as usual, updating stuff here and there. Flixter, Myspace, Twitter and all hehe...

I feel like eating again. At this rate I'll grow fat in a matter of time. *Giggles*. Then no one want me.... Saddd..... Hahahaha!!! Thanks to Emir, I like saying, "Sad" haha.. I can't wait til I graduate in four years time. I mean I still have to go to Form 6. Goodness. I wonder where I'll be schooling then. Kuala Lumpur or still in Johor Bahru? Will anyone miss me? I doubt so.

My leg still hurts from the burn. The skin is peeling off. It hurts so bad. I didn't sleep a wink last night. I was thinking of the land and house we have in Selangor. I bet no friends of mine will notice me leave. I'm the wall in school. Only teachers happen to realize me. That is also because when they need something from me. Else I'd be ignored. What rotten luck do I have? I'm tired. I'll update more at night.

Amelia HOSPITALIZED!!

Hey,

Nothing to be happy about today. My niece was hospitalized because something got stuck in her nose and can't come out. When my sister and brother-in-law went to the hospital to get whatever thing was inside her nostrils out, they found out it was some old metal that has rusted and a huge probability that it has been there for a few months.

Goodness that child. She never fails to worry her parents, grandparents and her uncle and aunts. Hopefully she has learned her lesson. ^_^...

That wasn't the only thing that had happened though... My mum had a twisted nerve at her hips so bad that she couldn't stand. I couldn't bear watching her suffer....

I'm so stupid. I didn't think my life would make me so miserable and sorrowful. Oh dear. It is only 8.41pm and my eyelids are heavy... Good thing Emir and Huda are entertaining me right now. Else I won't hesitate to fall on my bed and snooze off. But I can't. Since my sister is still tutoring students right now. Why must they be tutored at night. Can't you people be more considerate!

I'm tired you know!! The person I want to chat with is not online.. *giggles*... not "Him" in paticular. But "He" haha... oh dear its confusing since both have the same name. But not the one I like la... Right now I miss Tengku Nasrullah... He hasn't called me in days. Did something happen to him?! I hope not.

I want to talk to him. Aww man... Don't tell me.. Crap I think it is. He is jealous. I've been busy lately that I haven't talked to him. I'm sorry dear, I can't call you. My prepaid has yet to be reloaded. I'll call you tomorrow love. I know that you are baby-sitting tonight. So I won't disturb you working. Be careful. I'm so sorry. Take care. I love you. Both of you. SO MUCH!!! And I'm NOT two-timing Joseph!!! sheesh... take cares

With lots of love- Masayu

Sadness

My heart is aching, tears are forming.

I know what his answer shall be.

But I understand why.

Fade away my feelings. I need you not.

You fail to bring me happiness...

You succeed in bringing me sorrow.

Perish for now, come back later...

I need not a broken heart. That is all..

A/N: I hope that my heart won't break as it has already

Updates on TODAY!

Hey....


So did any of y'all enjoyed the songs?? hehehe.... Well here is something from the bottom of my heart to all my readers Young and Old...

"Life is full of mystery. Good or bad. There were times when it hurts, there were also joyful times. Having someone to love is a burden. Not having one kills. True friends are hard to find. Most will stab your back. But fear not of the future. For you know not of what shall happen. Look forward to it, and you shall find that emptiness in your heart."

A/N: I was inspired by my memories of my past love. Though there were times when it hurts and when I felt like breaking but I didn't end it just there. I stood tall once more. In search of something more... Please don't be so miserable over your life. Live it to your fullest for you live only once. Treasure it when you have it.

Love

Here is something for you....

You were my strength when I was weak.

You were my voice when I couldn't speak.

You were my eyes when I couldn't see.

You saw the best there was in me.

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach.

You gave me faith cause you believe.

I'm everything I am because you loved me...

A/N: This chorus was sang by one of the power houses, Celine Dion!!!!

Mornin!

Hey!

Hello loves! How are you people this morning? I'm so tired... Even when I'm not schooling I have to wake up at 5 am... zzZZzzz I'll update later at night... Take care and have a wonderful morning!

Entitled, Ain again

Hi's to people who is reading and byes to the people deleting,

I haven't heard anyone call me "Ain" for a long time goodness. Best day EVER!! I met my ex-boyfriend Udin... LAWL! I know its wicked!

I didn't recognize him at first though. It was him who came up to me saying, "Ain?!" Haha... I was like, "What who are you? Do I know you? If I don't shoo.." haha... Surprisingly, he wasn't surprised with my reaction. Last time I met him was Primary 4... It has been four long and miserable years. haha... That irritating guy....

So both of us sat and chit-chat and went for a walk at CS together. Bleh... Since some idiots stood me up. He accompanied me. I forgot how much fun it was to hang out with him. Haha... He has become stronger then me now. I wonder if he worked out since I always defeat him in arm wrestling. And FYI, he was my wrestling partner.

When we arm wrestle he always says, "You are good at attacking and I'm good at defending." everything he almost loses. But it took me about three months before I can finally defeat him then. He was honestly good at defending himself ^_^... Those days were fun. Even though Rulang Primary School is a hell school. I never fail to have fun when he is around. And nothing has changed since then.

I'll continue off next time dears. I have to shower now!!! love ya!

My love for you- Pics

Love is Hateful.
What it can do to you is a mystery.
It can destroy you or bring you joy.


A/N: I have chosen the path where it can bring me happiness and joy. I have had enough of misery and sorrows.

The sickly

The sickly are down.

The healthy are up.

Half at home, half at work.

Nothing is free for there are exchanges.

An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth...

A/N: Good bye love.

Deep down in my heart

Present and Past, Tales shall spill like the blood of many.

Men died in war. Some survived, staining their swords with blood of enemies.

Women and children cried and moaned over their dead loved ones.

Sons swore to avenge their fathers death. Some lost hope.

But deep down in their deepest corner of their heart, a severe wound that occur is unable to be cured. A scared child crying, waiting, for courage from their fathers.
One dies protecting ones family or country is blessed to heaven.

A/N: Only true love shall sacrifice one's life for his loved one. That is what I think.
Do you agree?

Went out

Hey Loves',

Joseph I'm SO SORRY I didn't pick up my phone when you miss called me four times. I am Sorry!! I was out with my family. After school I was dragged out by Nas and gang LOL! He was going on and on about "You don't come and I'll smooch you."

Knowing his character I'd better go else he will force a kiss on me... And I'd get a tounge bath for nothing.. *shivers* EWWW!!!!! I hate that dude for that reason.

And I mish my N@$_RUleZ so much.. *sobs* too bad so sad. Haizz...
Would he agree if I were to ask him to be my boyfriend? What do you guys think??

A/N: PLEASE COMMENT AND GIVE ME WHAT YOU THINK!! ><

Shugo Chara, Umu-chan

Invisible Scar.

Hey,

Alright I'm just repeating what I said in my other blog. I cut myself by accident on my palm this evening. However, it does not hurt as much as my invisible scar deep down in my heart buried. Unknown when it will blow up like a volcano.

It hurts so bad that even crying does me no good. So I have decided that I will close my heart up. And only open once more when I am at the right age. For now, it is useless.

Apologise

All I want from him is an apology. Is it hard to ask for? I really do want him to be nicer to me.... That is all

The top pic is just a reference for me btw

My heart Ache

Hey,

Though I love him, hem treats me like a wall no matter how much I tell him I love him. He denies that he treats me like a wall. He denies that he didn't swear at me. He denies that I am an existence like him.

I should have listen to my girlfriend when she told me to keep away from him. I should have listen before my heart could have torn up.

I'm a loser. I hate myself for loving him